Post by taitai on Dec 30, 2010 2:18:49 GMT -5
What is that name on your lips?
Is it from the other side? Don't lie.
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,460,true][atrb=style, background: url(http://i53.tinypic.com/a2vuas.png); padding: 5px; text-align: justify; color: #202020;] 'I had always thought Christmas a day to be celebrated with loved ones, to be had with family and because of that very reason. I hate it.... I hate it so much....' Christmas, a day of giving, a day of memories shared between family. Asha never had a true Christmas, she never had a loved one or family member to share it with. Such a sad fact. The bond between Asha's Mother and her was distant, it was one of little interaction and for that she hated them. She hated the world. She hated people... She was lonely, like a doll within a enormous house. Her Mother owned large firm, and therefore she was never home with her on Christmas. Her work was her life, and Asha hated it so much. Her mother never spent time with her. She had always gotten wondrous gifts that many kids only wished for. So many would be placed under that glowing tree of multicolored wonder. So many vividly wrapped presents big, and small. Rectangle and square. Yet every morning when she was a child, she'd awake by herself. She'd walk down those long stairs, alone. She'd wander into the spacious living room, filled with the dim glow of lights, alone. And, she'd look around to find no one. Just the many presents underneath the tree. She'd open them alone... No matter how many she received the hollow pain that rested in her chest would not go away. The tears each morning would not cease to flow. Every morning her sadden wails could be heard throughout the neighborhood, a cry worthy of the finest hymns god. On the floor upon her knees sobbing she'd always think. "Do they really love me?" "Am I an unwanted child?" Asha's hatred for the holiday grew more and more with each passing Christmas, and the more it did, the more her bond with her Mother faded away, the chain of love encroaching slowly..... The present-- A land of silver existed outside the large house, cold and gorgeous. Within a tiny bed a young girl of age seventeen laid quietly, her mind dwelling within a mysterious land called dreams. Not a noise was made, it was as if the house were ruins to a old battle ground where no one dared wandered. Amber light seeped through the window on her right, speckles of it touching her face as her eyes fluttered. The shadowed casted room was obscured to the awaking girl, her sea blue hair draping over her face as she lifted herself up. Dull eyes looked at the outside world with an underlying look of disgust It's Christmas.. She muttered lowly as she sat upright her white tank top shuffling. "Why do I get up each Christmas day? Im alone and that'll never change..." Asha laid back down putting the pillow atop her head. "I don't feel like getting up." Her eyes closed, the world fading to black. Ten minutes passed and she awoke a bolstering scream piercing the air. Her body was encased within a thin layer of sweat and her eyes wide. "Mother...." She hoped out her bed rushing down the steps, her hair lively bouncing behind her. Surprise was within her eyes, under the tree was nothing. Not a single thing. What was going on she thought? Asha rushed back upstairs opening her parents door. There was nothing. Where could they be she wondered? Back into her room she grabbed her cell phone from off the dresser quickly dialing her mothers cell phone. There was no answer. She tried again and than she again, but to no avail could she get anyone to pick up. What was happening? Asha put on some clothes quickly and rushed out the house and into the world filled of snow. The morning sky was pale, an ambient wind wrapping around her body. He parents car wasn't in the garage, so she ran next door rapidly knocking upon their door. Three knocks passed until finally Ms. Crockett answered. "Have you seen my Mother?" Asha spouted out quickly. "My my whats wrong dear? I saw her leave earlier than she usually does for work, but I don't know what she's doing." Without answering back she turned around and walked away somberly. 'She doesn't love me, she went away, away without me.' Asha walked quietly not a sound made. She looked around from the cold as the other families enjoyed each other, they enjoyed the day of giving with the people they loved. Asha hated it, she hated life. Reaching the main bridge of the city she looked out into the setting sun. It was still early and nobody was on the roads. It was just her. She would die here, alone. Climbing onto the ledge she looked down at the rushing river. It wasn't scary, not when there was nothing to live for. Not when one wouldn't be missed. There was nothing holding her back, nothing to keep her from going over the edge. Asha's foot took a subtle step forward, but a echoing voice came from behind her. Her eyes opened wide as tears fell onto her cheeks. Her mother hustled out of her car tears whipping past her face. "What are you doing Asha get down please!?" "Mother!" "Get down please." Why? You've never loved me. Dont try and act as if you know me, don't try an be my mother after all this time. "Asha...." "No! I hate you! I hate people, and I hate the world!" "I know I haven't been a good mother, but I do love you. I wanted to be with you on this Christmas. Thats why I left early, so I could come back to see you. We were going yo go somewhere far away. Just me an you." "What? No I don't be-" "It's true, I love you. Please don't' jump. Please come back to me!" Her mothers tears came heavier as she opened her arms. Asha as a cross road at what to do. She was confused, she was lost. "Please come down!" Her mother pleaded as she took a step forward. "No!" "Asha!!!!" Asha said as she instinctively stepped back, but there was nothing to support her, it was just the river. Slipping she began to fall, her mothers weeping face passing her eyes as she plummeted. 'This is for the better, no? I wonder where I'll go?' Asha's eyes opened one last time, tears welling up in her violet pools. Her mother was falling along with her, arms outstretched, reaching for Asha. "Why?" "Because I love you dear, and at least on this last Christmas we can be together.... " Heavy tears came out as Asha's mother caught her placing her head upon her chest. "Don't worry dear. I'll be with you, so you on't become lonely..." "I love you mother.." "I love you too Asha, I love you so very much..." Their bodies finally crashed into the rivers deaths plunging deeper and deeper into a world of deep blue together. We were swept into the riverbank and my visuals went black, my oxygen snatched from my lungs but even so, she still held me tight, so tight, that I could still feel her warm touch as death's cold, cruel embrace claimed our lives. This was the one time ever that I ever felt like a family with my mother. This was the most precious gift ever given to me by my mother..... Love! I was no longer lonely...... |
credits rinne
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