they make me sick. sorta.

[MARION SUE]

so, it's pree obvious that I haven't been posting - AGAIN - these days. mostly because I haven't really (no not really extremly, but it still bothers me) been feeling like sharing Marion/Faust's thought process as of late. why? well, this should be old news for both Kiwii and Hna x)

long story short - I recently had a fight with a close friend. now, I've always been really good when it comes to separating ooc things with ic ones since I'm usually quite, uhh, how do you say this... emotionally detached? yeah. 8| but this fight was... let's just say that, this friend of mine has called me a few nasty things throughout our six years of friendship (only when we fight though, so don't worry) and, honestly, I was fine with every single one of them - bitchface, jerk, dick, asshole, etc. - 'cause I KNOW that I can be a real douche without knowing it. my sarcasm and lack of sensitivity aren't usually appreciated, which is OF COURSE very much understandable.

so anyways, back to my story. *brick'd* in the last fight we had about a week or so ago (but even then we've had disputes/haven't been on very good terms in the past two months), she called me a bully - I know, I know, a "bully" is nothing CLOSE to "jerk" or "asshole" but tbh, it was actually QUITE upsetting for me. xD;; (omg look I actually have feelings *shot*) she accused me of constantly telling inside jokes with another friend of mine (whom she didn't/doesn't? like but is now sorta okay with? idek, but they seem to be "getting along" atm B|?), AND teaming up with that same friend against a girl that SHE barely knows (thing is, I've told her that I don't like that said girl, but I swear to god I haven't even talked to the girl enough to actually "bully" her). as I've said, I'm well-aware that I can come off as a bit of a jerk sometimes 'cause, yes, I do tend to get carried away with my... whatever you wanna call it, assholeness. it's a bad habit, I know, but what I ALSO know is that I don't, and will NEVER "target" specific people; if I think you're being offensive or stupid, no matter who you are, I'll treat you like an idiot - simple as that. I'm sarcastic and make snide remarks to pretty much everyone, does that mean I bully EVERYONE? uhh, I don't think so, 'cause I'm pree sure I'd be hated hardcore if I did.

but, yeah, sorry, this is kinda turning into a rant thread *slapsselfaround* ... what I actually WANTED to say from the start is that, well, y'know, Marion and Faust can both be... kinda nasty in their own ways and, idk, it just drains me whenever I try to ('cause believe me I actually did attempt to make my replies BU; think on the same wavelength as them now, sooo... soooooo... please understand, guys, I just... ha ha, I'm trying to cut myself some slack here by NOT purposely acting like a jerk which would probs make me feel worse about myself (YES I DO HAVE A HEART, DON'T TREAT ME LIKE I ONLY KNOW HOW TO PUT OTHERS DOWN T A T). ;; but, seriously, I promise I'll get those posts done once this whole fiasco's done and over with. orrr, just once I feel better and have really moved on from the subject matter, hur hur.

AGAIN, SORRY - FORGIVE ME? 8'D

oodles & oodles of love,
Natsu/Tuna/thatstupidtrollgirl *shot*

[{ HANNIE }]

WE UNDERSTAAAND <3 D: come back sooooon natsubby!

[{ CLAUS }]

Our real lives always have a way of reflecting themselves in our characters and our work when we're not on top of our game so take as long as you need to get things set straight. Ranting is a good way to get it off your chest too ;D

Needless to say, we all eagerly await your FAAAAB-ulous return!

PS: I don't think you're a bully or an asshole or a jerk. You're just crazy hyperactive XP

[{ KAI }]

and crazy hyperactive is good

/pats back
We're gonna be here for a looooooooong time, so no worries!
Talk to me on MSN if you wanna rant or just be nonsensical :] As corny as it sounds, I'm here for ya, Natsu~

everyone on The Blue = my younger siblings, lol